Today's My 40th Birthday! Uhhhhhhhh!

I can't figure out how I feel about turning 40. I guess since I'm not having a major meltdown and driving across the state to check into a motel by myself I'm o.k.

When I turned 30, I felt a new hope rise up in me. Like, I'm getting older but there's still time to start something new, even start a new career or try writing a book. Ten years later, I'm still writing but for myself, for fun and leisure. I had more time ten years ago to write full-time and now that I work full-time, this is my hobby, and an enjoyable one at that.

When I woke up this morning, I had no epiphany. Just the thought that I better get ready for work and check my e-mail. Another day. Another day, God willing, then another year.

I've been dreading this day for a long time. I'll be at work all day, working ten hours so there'll be no pity parties or any other kind of parties for me. Boo -hoo. Boo-hoo. Oh, well.

I'm trying to be positive. God gave me another year- his gift to me. I'm somewhat healthy and my kids are healthy. I have a decent job and I get paid over minimum wage. Yeah.......

My heart is telling me I'm nineteen. I still feel silly and immature at times but my body is saying, "Hey, lady, take it easy....you ain't nineteen anymore!" I'm going to write a hub about women turning 40 who are also pre-menapausal ! Yeah, how's that?

The day is young and I'm not! Well, compared to 90, I'm young, but I'll turn this around in my head and face my fourth decade with the right attitude.... I will.